tiistai 17. elokuuta 2010

Day Seven - System Reboot

This is practically continuation from day six, decided to start this post a little early. Looks like it might be pushing for a novel lenght.

I feel like I have pretty solid concept over what to do in any situation now. I know when going for a walk is the best alternative to stay awake, when playing games is enough or when I really need to go into the hardcore stuff like ice-cold showers.

But everytime my brain has a new surprise up his sleeve. Today I overslept because I practically slept through alarm. It was first time in huge amount of naps that I overslept. I wasn't expecting it, even if I knew I was pretty much trashed.

Thinking straight is another problem when the narcolepsy gets really bad. You somehow start to think that "I can go straight back to bed after that nap" or other crazy stuff. I also have to really spend time figuring out what has happened if something went different from how I planned it. Like today's first oversleep. I was very dissapointed when I woke up, because I knew that I wasn't supposed to sleep that far. Then I stared for clock like five minutes trying to figure out when I had gone to bed. It would be funny if it weren't so sad.

That said, I hope my sister can keep me on the line for the rest of the adaptation. She won't be around too long again so I really don't have that much time to work it all out. I doubt I can do this alone, there's just too much evidence against it. I told my sister that If she ever sees me getting up from the bed, shutting down my alarm and going back to the bed she can kick me in the head.

In other news, I played poker after a couple of days break. I felt I was sane enough to enter the tables and it turned out to be true. I had good luck and played decently. Ended up winning almost 2 buyins.

Combination of winning in poker and actually being productive again is making me feel pretty good. Wouldn't call it euphoric, but at least content.

Day 7.1

Naptime: 1:50 - 2:10, 20 min
Mental: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Tiredness: 0 1 2 3 4 5
REM: No
Time since last proper sleep: 154h 50 mins
Succesful naps in a row: 3
Time since last oversleep: 10 hours 50 mins

Another REMless nap. I feel fine though. Having tough time to get anything started though. Since I've not felt like writing much here, I'll take this spot to answer Lyla Dame's question from the comments
"Have you felt any floating sensation or had any issues with spatial orientation?"
In short: Not. Most of my naps feel pretty much the same and as you know, I haven't had that much REM action, at least I don't recall having much of it. Most of my naps feel like I've just sorta drifted somewhere between dream and wake state for 20 minutes. I'm not always even sure whether I've been asleep but there's certain change of conchiousness that I've noticed when I'm dreaming. Also when I'm falling asleep I sometimes feel almost a physical "click" in my head just before I fall asleep. Or I don't know how soon before it is - I've just noticed that it happens and I use it as an indicator that I'm relaxing well and it helps me to stay calm, as in not try to hurry a nap because I know minutes are ticking away before alarm sets off.

But I hope I adapt that I can really answer how it changes for the REM.

I don't really feel that tired, but writing just know I noticed that my eyesight is really blurry at times. I don't really have anything else to say about it, just an observation that I probably are tired after all.

Day 7.2
Naptime: 5:50 - 6:10, 20 min
Mental: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Tiredness: 0 1 2 3 4 5
REM: No/Maybe*
Time since last proper sleep: 159h 50 mins
Succesful naps in a row: 4
Time since last oversleep: 14 hours 50 mins

These six o'clock naps are their own beast altogerther. It's really hard to get up, even if you're not that tired really. It's just that it's cold and all. I hate it. Coldness and tiredness make for a bad couple. I'm having so trouble staying awake! I drifted to darkness for a moment just know. Glad I realized where I was heading.

On to the Modern Warfare, gotta shoot off this groggyness before it's too late... Alright, finished playing. Still feeling tired though. It seems that this day is gonna be constant fight as well. I just gotta weather through it. I thought that I could have a good productive day and during the first phase of the day my head would've been clear enough to do stuff. Now it seems like it's too late and I wouldn't bet on it getting any better in the latter phases. In short this is the start of the final battle against sleep deprivation. It can be up to three days of zombie mode from this moment on.. If I don't oversleep. Or then again this might still be just a warning round.

*I've been thinking about my waking up for this phase. I felt weird then. It was like I had some internal conflict that was annoying me and like I was someone else. Just waking up from a dream would explain that. However, I don't remember much about those thoughts, only that everything was not right after waking up. In short, still a mess mentally.

It's still 45 minutes 'til my nap. I'll try to pass as much time as possible writing this. I'm pretty tired. I'm worried about oversleeping. I'll be setting alarms on and doing as much autosuggestion as possible but I can't help but to feel little bereft of confidence. Also I figured out that going straight outside, first thing when you wake up (after setting alarms off) would be a good thing. It might take the easiest mistakes in terms of going straight back to bed off, as you'd have time to get your thinking straight. That said, if I'm hitting bad sleep inertia I won't remember to even go outside, there's that chance. But I'll do any little stuff available to improve my chances, even if only a little.

It's odd how your head works. Right now I feel like I have a hole in my memory for this morning. You know from around 3 am. to 7 am.. But I still remember what happened then. It's hard to explain, but it's like I feel like I don't remember it, even if I do.

I'm sorry (well, not that sorry). I won't be staying awake even if I keep writing. I need to get up, otherwise I'm not gonna make it rest of the phase.

Day 7.3
Naptime: 9:50 - 10:10, 20 min
Mental: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Tiredness: 0 1 2 3 4 5
REM: No
Time since last proper sleep: 163h 50 mins
Succesful naps in a row: 5
Time since last oversleep: 18 hours 50 mins

I was pretty much a wreck after waking up. I went outside but it really didn't do much expect frushtrate me because it's getting cooler. I talked later with my sis, or more like she talked to me and I struggled to stay awake. She was every two seconds telling me to keep my eyes open. It was semi-funny, but at least I made it through the toughest part. Now I'm sailing on much safer waters. I feel like I should be able to make it pretty easily to next nap.

Day 7.4
Naptime: 13:50 - 14:10, 20 min
Mental: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Tiredness: 0 1 2 3 4 5
REM: No
Time since last proper sleep: 167h 50 mins
Succesful naps in a row: 6
Time since last oversleep: 22 hours 50 mins

Close to perfection on execution this nap. But I'm still very tired and have to make some conchious effort not to fall asleep.

There's only one nap left before tonight's football match. Weather is great after all so I fully expect that there will be a game. Just to add some challenge into this adaptation. I will be playing my normal game, I don't even know how to play without giving it all. I'm fully expecting that phase 8.1 will be the toughest so far - Usually the football match hits that nap the hardest. If I survive it the rest will probably keep upping the ante. But if I weather that storm, I'll be very close to success.

But yeah, phase nearly over, have done much nothing so far.
Oh crap. Was very close to falling asleep just now. I guess I'll have to get up.

I felt like my tiredness would be subsiding a bit, so I sat back to my computer for a moment to listen to some music. One song later I'm pretty much ready to bed. This phase has been a constant struggle. I'm winning at the moment, but you never know..

Day 7.5
Naptime: 17:50 - 18:10, 20 min
Mental: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Tiredness: 0 1 2 3 4 5
REM: No
Time since last proper sleep: 171h 50 mins
Succesful naps in a row: 7
Time since last oversleep: 26 hours 50 mins

So this was the football match phase. There were only 8 people playing so I could spare some energy and we played only for a relatively short while. Still there will no doubt be some physical fatigue tonight. Obviously playing football doesn't leave you space to be tired. Also nap execution was again top-notch stuff. I can really be happy about that - not a minute too early in bed, fast asleep and just a couple of minutes before alarm sounded I got up. I really hope I can keep that up.

Day 7.6
Naptime: 21:50 - 22:10, 20 min
Mental: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Tiredness: 0 1 2 3 4 5
REM: No
Time since last proper sleep: 175h 50 mins
Succesful naps in a row: 8
Time since last oversleep: 30 hours 50 mins

I actually wouldn't have to have struggled on this one, it's just that sis was on my computer and I had absolutely nothing else to do. Therefore I just laid down. I was constantly about to fall asleep, but my sis' regular check-ups made sure that I never really drifted that close. The nap itself weren't perfect either. There was distractions and I didn't feel rested after it.

But this day is pretty much packaged. Let's hope I survive through the next day as well.

2 kommenttia:

  1. I've been looking forward to reading your progress all day. I have lots of questions for you but first I'm researching polyphasic sleep so I have a better understanding of what you're doing. I have a strong understanding of REM sleep as well as brain chemistry, but I'm not familiar with sleep manipulation. I came across this resource: http://www.stevepavlina.com/blog/2007/03/polyphasic-sleep-one-year-later/

    I've experienced sleep paralysis, lucid dreaming, etc. on a regular basis since I was very young. I easily slip into REM, sometimes even while I'm still awake. Some of the symptoms you've experienced are familiar to me.

    When you talk about experiencing narcolepsy, do you have narcolepsy or do you mean that this experiment is creating a narcoleptic brain?

    Again, I'm extremely interested in your research. I have my doubts on whether a long term transition to this type of sleep would be healthy, but I think the data your collecting is invaluable. At the very least, you gain a better understanding of your circadian rhythm. Hopefully, this will expand your ability to lucid dream.

    Good luck and I look forward to the next update. Maybe I'll find a way to experiment with my sleep, but I already know I can't screw around with sleep deprivation since I already struggle with sleep debt. However, I could practice early waking to induce lucid dreaming. hmmmmmm

    By the way, have you thought about using aromatherapy in your attempts to stay awake? Most pleasant smells are soothing and relaxing but there are some that might be rejuvenating. Plus, if you experience any nausea, peppermint and tea tree might work. Just a thought. Also, aromatherapy might be helpful for your naps.

    VastaaPoista
  2. I don't really have narcolepsy, as in the disease, what I mean is that I have narcoleptic symptoms etc.

    I haven't thought about aromatherapy. Perhaps should give it a go at some point.

    VastaaPoista